All I Ever Wanted

     So I'd say I'm a pretty typical mom who loves being at home, but can breakdown and be overwhelmed by all of it. I have good days and I have bad days. I'd say I have 80% good and 20% bad and almost always those bad days are due to lack of sleep or lack of routine lol.

    Well I was having a particularly good day and working hard and getting things done when I took the time to be grateful it was a good day. I stopped and thought about my bad days in the past and was so grateful to be experiencing it all. I was so grateful to think how much I had overcome personally and how much adversity Malachi and I have overcome as a couple. 

    I decided to take a picture of the moment.


    I was currently at one of sons sports classes. He was enjoying his class, my daughter was playing with some of my sewing supplies right next to me, and my baby was in child watch having a blast on the slide. It was so good. I was fixing up a tie of Malachi's that had fallen apart and thought to myself, "This is the life I had only dreamed of having." And it's so true. 

    My life is a dream come true. It's absolutely NOT perfect and NOT always happy and NOT always fun. But it is a complete wish of my heart that has been granted. I love my husband and he loves me. We are faithful and loyal and doing our best to help take care of one another. We are working to better ourselves and our relationship. We enjoy each others company and love spending time together. That is just such a treasure to me. Next is our kids. Man, 3 kids 4 and under is not for the faint of heart. Most days I go to bed completely exhausted. But I have 3 kids that I absolutely love and adore. I want the best for them, I want to help them, I want to be involved and I want to see them grow. They are good and challenging and want to progress and are kind and change and grow every single day. It is such a blessing to witness! 

    I don't know exactly what I'm getting at here... But I just know that I took that picture above with a heart full of gratitude for all the hard stuff that happens in life because without it, I don't get to enjoy any of the good stuff. I don't get to spend my time fixing my husbands ties, if I don't have a husband. I don't get to sit on cold cement stairs for a kids sports class if I don't have a kid. I don't have to pay money for my baby to be in child watch because otherwise he'll run everywhere - if I don't have a baby in the first place. Do you see it? Like the lady who is grateful for so much laundry because that means she has so many people in her home with her. That's how I felt!

    So if you are overwhelmed with the problems in your life, I get it! Amen! Thank you Heavenly Father that that isn't all to life. But take a chance to see why you have those problems. Is it because you have beautiful children you are tasked of taking care of? Is it because you have a beautiful home you need to pay for, etc? And then maybe you get to have some moments where you see that it's all worth it, just like I did. <3 

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