Ballet 🩰

 My sweet Tiana’s birthday is coming up! She’s gonna be 6! I can hardly believe it. 

So story time. 

Tiana has liked ballet for the past year. So we finally signed her up for ballet and she’s been enjoying it! She has one more month in it and then she’s gonna try something new. 

Well for her birthday, my dearest friend wanted to take Tiana to see real ballet, the Nutcracker in Salt Lake! I’ll be honest that I was really sad at first. I wanted to go and have that experience with Tiana. Why didn’t I think to do that? Could I just tag along because I don’t want to miss this! Or maybe I just take her myself? 

All of these thoughts came because my amazing friend, who is practically my sister, wanted to do this for her niece. 

I actually cried about it haha. Then turned to my husband. We chatted all about it. The pros and cons. He answered a lot of my thoughts. Some conclusions we got to were that I can’t go because it’s too long and I’d need to feed baby. It’s also very expensive so that’s why I couldn’t and shouldn’t just take her myself. And lots of other good things came from this convo! 

But still no decision.

So Malachi asked if we should pray about it.

Deep down I didn’t want to. I just wanted to pick myself and be selfish. But I agreed to pray.

Gratefully, my patient father in heaven understood my heart. He knew this was out of love for my daughter, but that I was being selfish. I felt him tell me that I can’t hold back my daughter from great experiences just because I can’t be involved. That is not the mom I am trying to be. I can sacrifice for her because it is what is best for her. I cannot stand in the way of her or any of my children’s successes just because it doesn’t involve me, even if my involvement is only for watching and praising them!! 

Hard lesson for me to learn with just my little 5 year old. But I hope she knows that I love to sacrifice for her. I want to be apart of her entire life. I love her with every single part of me. But if I’m unable to accompany her on anything, I won’t stop her. I’ll be cheering her on from any location! 

I truly wish I could be with her for everything. But I know I can’t. She’s got her own life to live and I’ll be there for everything I can be. 


I love you Tiana!! 








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