We deserve good!

     I'll be honest here. I've always had some trust issues. Blame it on my childhood or my parents divorce, whatever it is, it's real. One of my biggest trust issues revolved around marriage. I seriously doubted I could ever really get married.

    That's where my mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints comes in. I'm grateful every single day for my mission because it helped me overcome this fear and doubt. I finished my mission with hopes of finding a great companion and having an eternal family.

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    Right now I have been married for almost 8 years!! Our anniversary is in less than 2 months and it's fathers day this weekend. So I have been thinking a lot about my husband and our marriage.

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    I still have problems with doubts and work hard to overcome them. Sometimes the adversary wants me to believe that these wonderful blessings won't last, or that things will eventually fall apart. I know that all sounds terrible, but it's true. 

    I rely heavily on prayer for peace and faith. I also love reading my patriarchal blessing that gives me great hope in my little eternal family. 

    Just last night it was my sweet husbands turn to say our evening prayer. I'll admit that not every night we kneel down for prayer. Sometimes were exhausted by the day or took too long to say prayer, so we say it laying down. But last night I got up on my knees and he laughed and followed, but I thanked him for kneeling too. And then he prayed so sincerely for me and I just couldn't believe it.

    He prayed for my mind, for my body, for my abilities, for me to be strengthened and so much more. This definitely isn't the first time this has happened. But last night it felt like it built us up and grew us together immediately. It was such a sincere prayer on my behalf and I just can't thank him enough for all the care and love he gives to me.

    In an instant, it felt like my heart was whole again. I could feel my fears vanish again as I listened to his love and care for me. To hear someone pray for you and then feel it in your soul...it's like nothing else.

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    Here's to fighting our fears and our insecurities and believing that God is good and that we deserve good. So grateful for my husband and hope he has an amazing Father's Day this weekend!





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